When life throws you a curve ball, how do you react? Normally, I can keep it together and know that God is in charge and it is his will. Last night we received a major curve ball that rocked our family to its core.
We were driving home from tutoring for one child and in the car celebrating the great day the other child had at school. We were talking about building a dog bathtub in our new garage for our girls. As I pulled into the driveway, the car behind me was pretty close. I was halfway up the drive when I saw Jason dashing towards me, as I rolled down my window he flew past. I heard it then. I heard the cries of my sweet, Slinky dog. She had been hit by the car behind me and was in the road. Jason picked her up and ran to the garage. The boys were going crazy. Warren was sprinting down the road yelling at that car (it never stopped) and Tanner was standing at the road crying hysterically. I was still in the van, trying to process what was happening.
I started calling our vet, then another vet, then the 24-hour emergency animal hospital. They told me to bring her right in.
I could not get my seats folded down in my van. Jason was yelling at me. I was yelling at the boys to get in the house and get the other dogs in the house. Then I realized we had one dog still in the van as she had rode with us to tutoring.
My mind flashed back 30 minutes. I almost took Slinky with us. But instead put her in her crate. I know it was God’s will, but I can’t help but think “what-if”.
I called my Mother-In-Law and was almost shouting at her we had an emergency and needed her now to be with the boys. I don’t even recall if she spoke on the phone.
We got Slinky loaded in my van and Jason crawled into the back with her. I knew my MIL would be at our house soon, so we left and headed to the hospital.
I cried the whole way there. Once we got there, they staff brought out a cart and lifted my crying dog from my husband. I remember the woman, gently pulled a towel over her face as they wheeled her away from us. Bless the hearts of these workers who deal with such tragedy, unfortunately on a somewhat regular basis.
They took me and Jason into a room and asked us some questions about what had happened.
When the vet came in he shared he had done some x-ray’s and she had plenty broken. They were giving her fluids and a heavy dose of pain meds to make her comfortable. We were not there too long. Obviously she had to stay. He promised to call me if her condition worsened overnight. He said the next hours were very critical. It was about 7:50pm when we left to go home.
We were feeling somewhat hopeful on the drive home. Yes, she would need to undergo a few surgeries, but we were hopeful she would come home. We prayed.
At 9:31pm, my phone rang. It was the the animal hospital, We had a 20 minute conversation about how her condition had significantly worsened in short period of time. We had some options. The best option seemed to be to say goodbye to our beloved little Slinkers.
I told the vet I wanted to be there and would get dressed and drive there. I got there about 10:20pm and they brought me to a room where she waited for me. Her front right leg was wrapped in a splint and she was heavily sedated. She was laying on a warm and cozy pallet of fleece blankets. I crawled to the cold, tile floor and laid beside her. I told her Sadie and Chelsea and my Pap would be waiting in Heaven for her and that she would love them. I promised her Jesus and my Pap would take wonderful care of her until she saw me again.
While I was in there laying on the floor with her a dear friend of mime texted me Psalm 147 3-5: He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. He determines the number of stars and calls them by name. Great is our Lord and mighty in power; his understanding has no limit.
The vet came in and as I held her she slipped away to the Rainbow Bridge. I know she was greeted with open arms by my Savior, Jesus.
I got home about 11:45pm and cried myself to sleep.
When the boys woke up this morning, I called them into snuggle with me and and told them our Slinky was in heaven. The tears flowed and they came fast and hard. I decided to keep them home from school for a little while. I had a conference call for work and when I was done, the boys were dressed and ready to go to school. It was about 10:15am.
I physically could not get up to take them. I realized I had not eaten since noon the day before and I was practically dehydrated from all of my tears. I logged onto my work computer and took care of some emails.
Jason had stayed home to work on his garage. He checked on me a few times and finally told me I needed to get it together and act like an adult. I didn’t want to get it together. I wanted to grieve for my beautiful red, Irish Setter. She was just a little more than a year and a half old.
I had another lengthy conference call for work. My head felt like it was going to explode at any moment. I got a single slice of bread and struggled to get down one bite with a sip if water.
At 3:00pm my family loaded up in the van to go pick up our girl. We were going to bury her at home.
Once we got to the animal hospital, I went to the front desk and lost it. I couldn’t speak. The tears just flowed. The girls behind the counter had no idea what to do. Jason had to get up and tell them why we were there. Once they realized who we were, they whisked us down the hall to a room.
The nice young lady came into our room and wanted to get us through the paperwork quickly so we cold be on our way. I almost felt like she was an angel sent from God. She had beautiful red hair, like our Slinky. She had kind and heart felt words to say to us. Me and the boys were all three sobbing. Jason had watery eyes.
Once the paperwork was complete, she presented us with a clay paw print of our girl in a heart shaped mold. It was beautiful.
We went outside and the young man who had wheeled her into the hospital on a cart, brought out our girl in a large white box ready to be buried. He and Jason gently laid her in the back of my van for one last ride.
Jason bent over and hugged the box with all his might and let the tears flow.
We drove home in silence after I said a prayer for God to give us peace and comfort, with the occasional sniffle one of us was choking back from a cry.
Jason’s dad had come over earlier in the day and dug a hole in our yard. Once we got home, we took her right to her final resting place.
We laid the box, which perfectly fit, into the deep hole. She had her small bed and a towel in the box with her. Warren had put a couple of her favorite toys in the hole with her. Our little family stood out in the yard and held each other tight as Jason and I both said a prayer of thanks for the time we had with her.
All 4 of us placed some dirt over her until the white box was no longer visible. 22 hours ago our world had been turned upside down.
We loved her so much and she had unconditional love for all of us. I know she was a dog, but she was our dog. She slept in the bed with me and Jason every night. She would sit on our laps. She had a quirky personality that we understood. She brought so much joy to our lives.
Tonight has been quiet around our house. Our other girls know she is gone. No one is climbing on the furniture to look out the window. No one is banging on the door. We have a lot of tears tonight.
Until we meet again. Our beloved, loving, funny, Irish Setter; Sandpiper. 5/12/2014-12/8/2015.
R.I.P. our sweet girl.